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The monster - draftThere was this girl once, who, liked to live in a world created inside hear head. And that world was made out of rainbow skies, sun kissed flowers, dream, fairytales, marshmallows and... him. But the was like the waves, coming, going and coming again. He was typical, norma, real and a total idiot. Real, like I mentioned. And she described him in so many words, she filled up an entire notebook with them, and she believed in those words. She described him as being every hero in her stories...
But one day, he, Travis, decided to brake her the news. This thime he was leaving for good, never returning into her caring arms although he promised her that a thousand times. He was never coming back, ever. his reason: he wouldn't regret it. Not now anyway...
And she was devastated of course, heartbroken, unwanted, alone. And she never really got over him because every time she missed him, she would stare in that notebook and remamber all about their story. And how he was the voice inside head hea
se pare ca-mi graieste-n alta limba intortochiata
in timp ce zambeste vag cu o aura intunecata
desprinzand mistere din aerul vechi al incaperii
in care soarele abia mai partundre printre draperii
in timp ce numar umbrele si-ascult sunetul distant de fanfara
el paseste lent numarandu-si pasii si masinile de afara
poarta in suflet o iubire, minus acele urme din trecut
care-i sunt prinse ca medallile unui soldat de soarta rapus
alt minut cade, cuvintele lui suna a poezii furate
dar niciunul dintre noi nu vorbeste de acele fantezii uzate
ma iubeste, dar cand a contat mai mult niciodata nu mia spus
doar s-a lasat purtat de vant, a inchis ochii si s-a lasat dus
si cand s-a intors tot la fel era, inchis, distant
cu gesturile unui veteran ingropate intr-un trup sarmant
dar cu toate acestea m-a luat de mana, ochii si-a inchis
si-a rosrtit domol "cu tine mereu, sunt cel mai fericit"
confession you are all i ever wish,i ever dream
you are all I ever desire,from my passion flames
you can create and start a fire...but will turn you in cold
and my heart is still " in hold"...
I wish you will be still mine,i make mistakes
if you are not by my side...
I could not breath-feeling the past-my heart is on hold
but my love will ever last,and if tomorrow strarts without me...
Can you feel the lost...can you even see?...
with the sadness-I change my mind- that the love i need
I will never fin
I BrokeI Broke
I broke last night.
I couldn't fight
the pain inside
and I lost my pride.
I fell into tears,
giving way to my fears.
Wondering if he'd stay
or if today was the day
when things went from bad
to worse; to make me sad.
I began to lose hope
and through pain couldn't cope.
Everyone thinks I'm being a goof,
but pain comes along and *poof*.
Down came my wall
as I began to fall
into the depths of despair
and there is no hope there.
No longer knowing what to do,
I prayed that it was true,
that God's promise will reign
and there will be an end to this pain,
that things will be alright
even in the night.
PainUnbearable down to the last bone,
This body I don't want to call home,
I am not feeling alright this way,
I am not happy or feeling okay,
I am in pain and always feeling under,
I feel like my body is torn asunder,
So tired, I want to open my eyes,
My muscles feel bound by weights and ties,
So sick, in pain, and tired aside,
I want so badly to erase this I cried,
All I want to do is sleep my days away,
To keep my feelings left at bay,
Not just the mental but the physical state,
This body of mine, I am starting to hate,
The way I feel is becoming a stain,
I feel I will forever be in pain.
AnankeI have come to confess
When I lay in darkness
I can't find any rest
For the pain in my chest
I still see you in chains
The blood boils in my veins
The lust shines in my eyes
Your Hell: my Paradise!
At the end of daylight
When I pray for delight
I watch in the fire
My only desire
All my senses aflame
At the thought of your name
Will soon drive me insane
I must meet you again!
See me down on my knees
I am begging you, please
Let me caress your skin
Taste the pleasure of sin
But your heart is so kind
And so dark is my mind
So cursed is my passion
My own self-destruction
And your eyes...
Tormenting my heart
And your cry...
Tearing me apart
And your voice...
Enchanting my ears
And your words...
Awaking my tears
And your face...
Corrupting my soul
And your fate...
Inciting my fall
My emotions seem all out of order
and it's like I'm on the border
of anger and sadness.
This is pure madness.
I can't control how I feel
when this pain is so real.
I can't seem to shake
the memories that keep me awake
all through the night.
I pray that things will be alright.
Maybe I'm just hormonal,
but this doesn't seem that normal.
I want to be able to smile
and stay joyful for a while.
Trust is also an issue for me;
loyalty seems like something I can't see.
In God I have faith
that my heart is safe
although it's not anywhere near whole
and loneliness is taking its tole.
Yet, despite these emotions,
God's love is wider than all oceans
and I know that one day I can feel love
like God's above.
El pensar del pensamiento.Pensar antes de pensar,
porque los pensamientos influyen en nuestro sentir,
que influye a la vez a nuestro corazón,
el corazón a la personalidad,
la personalidad en el carácter,
el carácter en nuestra razón y
... la razón en nuestra acción.
Mr.Barman (drunk)Hey Mr. Barman
Sing me a song
Sing about why i an in here
Even though none of us really know
Is already high night
Do not be so harsh
That would make me feel so right
It does not need to rhyme
It does not need not be to seen nice
Just drink some wine
And join me in the chooooooooooooooooooooorus
She does not needs to have assonance
Sense , dignified , verses
You just need to treat her weeeeeeeeeeeellllllll
It does not needs no me-lody
Makeup, dresses, voice
She is already perfect
Be my friend
Promises are emptylooking away
my heart is pained
why do they go away?
I want them to stay
confusion in my head
snakes inside my stomach
the light of the day is fading
storms keep rolling by
squinting for something to hold on too
as it slowly dissapears
promises are empty
the speed of the brain is slow
mixing and matching the patterns
I can understand why it would seem too hard
feet that keep walking
fists that keep punching
mouth that keeps slowly stretching into a smile
smile, smile for me!
please, dont leave me
dont you know what happens when I'm all alone?
slowly strumming the guitar sadly
to the movement of your emptiness
if i could .still wonderless.if i could find a place were burdens could fade
you'd be a payphone away from the mess that i made
but I don't care if your beautiful lips exist out there
i'm still wonderless why you didn't begin to care
if i could know a time when i wasn't to blame
then i could run away for you every now and again
but when you kill the conversation and wrap up the knife
i'm still wonderless why you are still alive
if i could rearange every single memory that exists
you'd be a murderer and i would be at the top of your list
and we should get back to when we were in collision
but i'm still wonderless why you took that decision
if i could find a place where I could keep you safe
then you'd be just a doorknock away from that place
and i don't care if your unwilling to give it a try
i'm still wonderless why you won't try to be mine
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